I am thinking about creating a new journal of sorts... I don't think I can deal with having it under this name, and being forced to read all the things that used to be... but a new one. Another new start. That's what I do, right? I drop thing things I love, or have the things I love ripped away from me... and I start over. That's kinda how I function.

Or possibly just how I repress.

For anyone who still cares, Curtiss kinda wandered away from loving me. I also lost Russell not long after, for somewhat different reasons. I don't want to talk about either in great detail. I'm still in shock. Both still hurt.

I've got a boyfriend now... Steve. Some may know him as Mog. He came to visit me not long ago.

Heh.. he told me that, if I couldn't get the tickets I'd bought to see Curtiss during Christmas transferred to Vegas, he would buy me new ones for the same days. That kinda blows my mind.

There is a lot of other things to say.. my life has pretty much changed 100%, most of which being a product of Steve's influence. He's.. changed me. I feel a lot more stable and my tastes and interests and abilities are.. fucking hugely expanded. It's amazing, what support like that will do.

So, as I was saying, I'm going to be making a new journal. Note me here or email me at lolonque@gmail.com if you're going to want to be friended when I make it. The first people will have to be by request only. I want to know who still cares.

Mood: calm

Yesssss..